Paranoid.

I'm sure kau akan protect yourself once kau dah pernah jatuh sekali kan?in some kind of situasi,kita terpaksa protect diri and hati kita daripada sakit lagi sekali.Kalau dulu,kau pernah bagi everything dekat someone which is yg kau percaya she/he the one utk kau but end up they ditch kau mcm sampah. So the result would like hell dekat kita and turn out kita yang jadi paranoid.

Bila kita jadi paranoid because of what happend from the past, now kita jadi protective...sebabnya?kita tak nak that thing happen lagi. Bila kau kenal someone new, kau kena restart everything.kau kena belajar terima cara dia,diri dia,perangai dia and kau sendiri tu pun kena restart balik. Learn back how to gain your own trust, your own feeling, your own mind. Kalau kau sendiri lost in yourself, maknanya kau tak ready for another relationship. Dont expect people could understand kau sedangkan kau sendiri tak understand what u want, what u need.

Learn to know someone its not like kau belajar ABC or 123. Its not like kau tengok cerita korea with english subtitle dekat youtube yang dengan mudahnya kau faham jalan ceritanya. Honestly,its not an easy work to do and its cause u so much effort if u really want to win it. In certain situation, eventho kita kenal someone new, eventho dia dapat catch our heart so easly, but doesnt mean dia akan show the love towards kita 100%. Kita kena ingat, its not just aku, kau, atau dia saja yg pernah rasa sakit di tinggalkan dan di permainkan.Mostly of us yang pernah terjebak dgn game so called love ni pernah rasa.

In this situation.Kau rasa kau tak dapat full attention daripada dia.Kau rasa mcm kau tak diberi 100% kasih sayang daripada dia but, kau tahu history dia and dia pun pernah cerita everything dekat kau, dia pernah explain and bagi tahu kau how dia punya feeling plus,dia siap bagitahu lagi reason dia buat macam tu dekat kau. How would u respond from it? kau tiba-tiba rasa macam...tak di perlukan? or kau rasa lagi takut lost dia? bila minded kau start masuk ion negative mcm ni automatically kau rasa down and kau akan keep asking why why why dekat diri sendiri.betul tak? tapi pernah tak kau fikir on dia punya side pula? kau rasa dia mmg intentionally nak buat kau rasa macam tu or dia sebenarnya tengah protect feeling dia..hati dia macam kau buat dekat diri kau sendiri.Did u get it what i'm tryin to say here?or aku syok sendiri je ni?

In other situation pula, kau expose perasaan kau dekat dia but kau do it in action.kau tak confess but kau do it in action.Kita semua tahu action speak louder than words right?so,there are some people yg blind to see it or they just ignore it.But there's some people that believe in every single thing that u made for them. Even kalau kau bagi blueberry cheese tart yang dah bersemut pun orang tu boleh happy gila sampai kalau boleh nak frame kan tart tu.Nampak tak dia punya effect paranoid dia dekat mana? If you hoping someone will realise how u feel how u think might be hurt u more and more.Better kau jgn menaruh apa-apa dekat someone.Its the worst thing to do. But if kau choose to be hurt by someone...if kau choose untuk melebamkan mata kau macam panda because of someone...if kau nak chasing shadow all the times and menunggu benda yang tak pasti dan impossible then go on.Its your choice. But, aku boleh cakap its the most idiot thing u do.

Kisah lama kadang-kadang memang boleh buatkan kita paranoid.sangat-sangat paranoid sampai kita jadi overprotective toward our self. Kita jadi takut. But kita tak boleh blame side mana-mana.aku tak boleh blame side him and kau tak boleh blame side dia. sebab kita semua pernah end up dgn same story which is...HEARTBROKEN. This is like routine in game of love.